Heat and Bands

We all know that things affect our bands tightness (stress, hormones, flying) even if our Dr.'s don't always get it. I am so super tight right now and have the double whammy of extreme heat and hormones.
I just slimmed up some hummus and crackers ( I have to say I think it was my first "real slime" since surgery) and it sucked.
Am I the only person on the East Coast that is looking forward to a big bowl of soup for dinner?
How much do outside factors affect the tightness of your band? Is this heat wave affecting you at all?

 

Greetings from the Tropics!

Hello all!

It is an oppressively hot Thursday here in lovely Maryland, but it's OK. I'm sure I'll need to get a part time job to pay my electric bill next month but I'll worry about that next month.

I'm really happy because my Mom had some tests done today that came back clear, so that's awesome. She was really, really nervous about them because they had found pre-cancerous polyps last year during the same test. She had gotten so nervous about it we had to get her on a different anti-anxiety medication to keep her calm. It's never fun to start to worry about your aging parent's health, but I'm blessed that they are both kicking and that they were able to finally move back to the East Coast this year to be closer to us.

Weight wise, I had a great week last week with the challenge, but this week I'm OTR (thanks Maria, great old school term) and swollen, so I'm not really sure where I'm at. I'm very tight this week with the combination of heat and hormones. I'm going to keep an eye on it – if it continues I might have to go get a de-fill/un-fill.

Not too much else going on – just trucking through summer. I can't believe it's the end of July.

I really miss blogging a lot lately (my own fault) I know. I do little posts in my head but they never seem significant enough to really post. I think I'm going to make an effort to post more, even if it's dumb and you don't read them. Also, I'm on Google+ so if you are and I haven't found you let me know.

Please keep fellow blogger Bonnie (Banded and Proud of It) in your thoughts today. Her Dad is having surgery and I know good thought and prayers are welcome.

Try, Try Again

Well from the look of it, I'm the only one who GAINED weight their first week of the challenge. It was a 1/2 pound, but still not the motivation I was looking for. Somehow I can't get it through my brain that I don't weigh 279 pounds and things I used to be able to eat and still lose I just can't do anymore (at least not all the time). So it's time for the dreaded "D" word – at least for a few weeks. I think if I had just a couple weeks of loss on the scale I'd get motivated again.

Also, I think I'm going to buy a new scale (I'm not blaming it I swear), ours is a WW one that I've liked, but it's really inconsistent lately. Last week it said anything from 178(!) to 174 and I just changed the battery in it. I feel like I'm on the Biggest Loser when they scale goes up and down before their real weight pops up on the weigh in. I found this on Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0032TNPOE/ref=ox_sc_act_title_1?ie=UTF8&m=A37RGE1MLU3I6K – it's affordable and gets great reviews- anyone tried it?

Also Gilly insinuated I might be a scale whore (very true) and said she only weighs in once a week during competitions. I don't think I can go from multiple times a day to once a week, but I'm going to try to do Wednesday morning then Sunday morning. We'll see how it goes.

We had a good, busy weekend. It was my Mom's birthday and we all got together and celebrated. She has been struggling with changing some medication she's been on so I think it cheered her up. I made a carrot cake and cake pops. It was the first time I made cake pops – they were a big hit. I wish I took pictures they were so cute, next time.

I predict this will be a long week, very hot and blah. I have an awesome get together to look forward to with Bonnie and Read and their families on Sunday. Bonnie was gracious enough to invite us over to their pool (luckily this will be after my Sunday morning weigh in, so I might partake in a drink or two).

OK – onward and downward. I have a delicious Click protein shake waiting for me for breakfast (aren't you proud?).

Confusion Reigns

I am in weird space right now with my body and weight. It's really something I've never experienced before because actual goal weights and being a "normal" weight always seemed elusive to me. When you're pushing 300 pounds seeing a weight with a 1 in front of it or wearing a size 10 literally seem like impossible feats. They are not, but as we all know those achievements in and of themselves don't bring happiness. Yes, I am happy to do tons of things I couldn't do 100+ pounds ago, but I'm still unhappy with how I look right now.

 

I really stopped writing about this because I got tired of writing that I was stuck at the same weight and I needed to get me shit together and honestly I'm sure people are tired of reading it. I'm really surprised that I didn't get comments that just said "Ok, get your shit together then". I guess part of my problem is right now I have days where I look and feel good and days where I just say "god, you'll always be fat". It's hard to balance those feelings and up to this point I've let the positive talk over power the negative – which is why I think I've been so complacent about hitting my goal let myself stay in this huge plateau.

 

I guess I'm not really sure what I should be doing – listening to the negative talk? Maybe this will spur me on a bit? That seems counter productive really.

 

I decided I'd join the BOOB's challenge, in the past they have always given me some motivation. And I actually sat down last night and tried to decide to really make a weight goal – one that is important to me. I'm not going to type or put it in my blog (at least right now). My plan is to try to hit it by my 40^th birthday – which is the week after BOOB's (but we'll celebrate there – right?).

 

I know this is not the most uplifting Friday post, but it's good for me to work it out – that's why we blog right (and to show off our clothes)?

 

I hope everyone has a good holiday weekend in Canada (today) & the US (Monday). And a lovely weekend everywhere else.