The Last 25

Friday, June 29, 2012

Hot Friday

Happy Friday everyone! Is it hot as hell where you are? It is here – several days of 100+ temps on the way. I fear this is going to be a liquid only weekend.

 

I did finally call to make an appointment for a small unfill and lucked out and can get in next week. Going to a new PA there and I hope I like her – I went to the PA exclusively the first year after surgery and loved her. After she left the practice I really didn't like going to my surgeon, so I'm glad there's another option. I made it really clear over the phone that I wasn't in distress(b/c they kind of freak out if you say unfill) and that I'm just a little tight because of the weather. I asked that if they want me to get an upper GI to let me know prior so there's no issue when I go. Now I have to think of how much to have unfilled. I'm leaning toward .25cc, but maybe a .50? I don't know – a .50 seems like a lot. I just envision sitting down and eating a whole pizza, but maybe not.

 

I guess if I like and trust this new PA, I'll talk to her about it. I know after 3 years I know a lot about myself and the band, but since I am struggling and have gained some weight maybe I need to be more open and listen to some outside advice – more like newbie. I do feel like sometimes I have an attitude – like I know what works, I've lost over 100 pounds, but it's not working and I'm stuck in my old ways right now. I'm kind of hoping this little unfill will start back on the right path (like Buddha, but not fat).

 

No big weekend plans – it will be hot as balls, so I envision being in the house or at the pool (if I shave my legs).

Friday, June 22, 2012

Bullet Friday

Hi Blogland!

I have busy, busy with nothing really fun, but thought I'd do a quick update - bullet style.

  • I am about 10 pounds up from my lowest weight. I am not happy, but I know there are several reasons for it. I'm self medicating with food and I'm WAY too tight.
  • My work environment sucks - it is really a struggle to go into work everyday. I've never loved my current job, but since the software company I work for was sold by U*P*S to a private investment firm last year things have gotten progressively worse. I am starting to actively look for something else. The depression about work definitely has lead to stress eating. 
  • I have to make an appointment to get a little fluid taken out of my band. I've haven't had a fill or unfill in over 2 years, but it's gotten too difficult to eat anything solid proteins without pain. I know if I call and say I need an unfill asap my Dr. will take out all my fluid and then make me get an upper GI. So to avoid all that I'm going to make an appointment, mention I need an adjustment and also get an upper GI before the appointment so we can make sure things are good. 
  • Once I can eat more I want to up my fruits and veggies. I really want to get more in my diet.
  • I bought some liquid vitamins at Costco. They are reViva brand. Has anyone ever tried them? I know I need them, so I hope I do better than I have in the past taking them. 
  • I joined a challenge on a running blog. It's not running based just weight loss. It's Lose a Marathon - the goal is to lose 26 or 13 pounds by September. Not sure I'm 100%, but it may help focus on my weight. You can still sign up if you're interested: http://www.runwithjess.com/2012/06/quest-to-lose-marathon.html#comment-form
  • We're going to see Brave this weekend, it looks fun. It will be a nice family activity. 
Well - that's about it. Keeping my head above water right now, but trying to stay positive.

Have a good weekend everyone!!!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

It was 3 years ago today....

That Dr. Lidor put this band inside me in the hopes that I could get my weight under control.
I'm sure at the time if I thought about 3 years in the future with my band, but here I am.
I'm not going to get too introspective I think because the past 6 months or so have been the worst for me as far as eating and I'm slowing working through it and coming out the other side. So here are some bandiversary bullet points:
  • I never regret getting my band (except when I really want a sandwich)
  • I have lost 105-110 pounds (depends on how I'm doing)
  • My diabetes is in remission
  • I feel normal (at least size wise)
  • I have made wonderful friends through my blog
  • I am still a work in progress, I will never NOT have to think about what I eat and how I use food, but I have help with my band
  • Every one of you helped me lose this weight - never underestimate the power of support