Closet Cleaning

So ladies, I spent a large part of yesterday going through my closets(and "too small" storage boxes) to see what I realistically had to wear through the end of summer/fall. Well, my doesn't work/too big pile is growing so PLEASE let me know if you are in need of any 22/24's (pants especially). I am in a limbo between 20 - 18, so I may have some 20's soon too.
I have a lot of capri pants from Talbots, also some Lane Bryant dress pants. I also have two nice suit jackets from Talbots.
If you need anything you can email me at lindasbandwidth@gmail.com.

My new favorite breakfast

I recently bought some Morning Star Farms Breakfast Patties at Costco. I've incorporated them into my morning eggs and love it- especially since we have home grown tomatoes. Today I made a two egg omelet with a sausage patty chopped up into it, topped with fresh tomatoes and a Tablespoon of Parmesan on top. I know this is a lot more than some of you can eat, but I'll enjoy it while I can.
The stats: 278 calories, 24 grams of protein, 11 carbs, 15 grams of fat.

Sometimes I use only egg whites or eggs beaters and of course it cuts the calories and fat. Since today is Saturday I splurged. If you haven't tried the Morning Star Farms you should - they rock.

Musings for the day...

I haven't posted in a few days so this will be one of my random, rambling posts I believe.

 

First the fill update- even at 8.5 cc's I still don't feel like I'm at my sweet spot. I definitely need a little more. Don't get me wrong I can feel a little difference since the last one, but I still could eat a lot more and get hungrier faster than I should between meals. I'm at that weird place where I really don't want to PB or get stuck, but at least one of those things would make me feel like it's working. I did have a scary moment with some goldfish pretzels on Sunday – not stuck but uncomfortable, so I am going to count that and move on.

 

On the goods news front I have lost 4 pounds since Thursday!!! I'm sure it's a little bounce back from my period ending, but I'll take it. That puts me 26 pounds down since surgery and 40 pounds down since June '08. I made a very lofty goal of

being down 40 pounds since surgery by our trip to Disney on September 24^th. Do you think I can lose 14 pounds in 29 days? That's 3.36 pounds a week - I reserve the right to adjust the goal a bit, but I'm going to try.

 

I have a lot of 22/24 clothes that are ready for a good home if anyone needs any let me know- I'm will soon be desperate for 18's myself.

 

Does anyone else watch Mad Men? Awesome show! Anyway there's a character on it, Joan Holloway that is a goddess in her office and is built that like a brick house for lack of a better term. Anyway on the show she is super confident and all the men swoon over her. My husband and I were talking about it and I made the comment that if this was set in modern day not the early 1960's she would be considered fat. I had also read that they make the thinner actresses on the show gain weight for filming because women were curvier then. Anyway it makes me kind of sad because I'll think I look awesome when I'm as thin as Joan Holloway…

Fill it to the rim…

So I had my third fill yesterday, it went well. I had a good discussion with Tara (the NP – such a sweet girl) about random questions I had.

Should I never drink a Diet Coke (because I did)? Maybe once a month some carbonation is OK – they don't feel it leads to stretching in LB – only in RYN

I feel my port and it kind of hurts sometimes – is this bad? You will feel it because it's attached to a muscle – if it hurts a lot let us know

Now that I'm more restricted can I still take whole pills? They shouldn't be a problem unless they are very large

She also told me she had a patient come in that she hadn't seen in two years since she had gotten filled and she had lost a lot of weight and kept it off. She said she asked her what she did to stay successful. The woman told her that he exercised regularly, avoided sweets and worked hard at it. I thought that was good to hear as far as being realistic about it will take to maintain.

In the end she gave me 1.5 cc's (total of 8.5 in an 11cc band). I hate to say that I'm still not really restricted and I'm jealous of everyone that is restricted with 4 cc's. I can feel a difference in how long my food is staying with me, but I'm still not there yet. Maybe another .5 cc next time…

What the ???

So my next fill (#3) is scheduled for tomorrow and God knows I need it, my meals are growing everyday and I'm getting hungry in about three hours. Except today I'm eating and feeling very full – why today? The peach I just had is making me feel like I had Thanksgiving dinner, I'm very confused.

This always happens with my haircuts too- I have perfect hair the day my cut is scheduled. Anyway, I'm going to monitor the situation and see how the rest of the day goes – it could be just a blip. I'm definitely going to get something tomorrow, but it may be less than I was planning on. It is my TOM right now so I don't know if that's affecting me – I've read that people feel tighter during this time. Do any of you ladies get that way?

I'll let you all know how it goes tomorrow morning. Have a great day!

Things I did right, things I did wrong...

So we had a busy weekend. My husband's sister and her family were in DC sight seeing for the weekend and we went to the National Zoo and had a cookout on Sunday. This a picture of Cate at the zoo. I certainly wasn't the model bandster this weekend, but tried to keep it in check. This is not a diet, it's life.

A few not so great things:
Had a Diet Coke
Made chocolate chip cookies and brownies for the cookout - and ate some...
With ice cream :)

A few good things:
Walked and walked and walked at the zoo in the 95 degree heat(helped sweat off the ice cream)
Went to the pool

On another note my daughter loves to take our camera and take random pictures. When I was going through them today I found this one she took on Friday. I had successfully squeezed my booty into a great pair of size 20 Gap jeans that the lovely Catherine had sent me(true traveling pants) and thought it actually looked pretty good. Sorry about the picture itself, but I was proud of my not so huge bottom.

Underwear? What Underwear?

Ok quick post. I was walking to my garage today after work. It's about a block walk from my building to the garage and I was talking to my previously mentioned beauty queen friend. Suddenly something feels weird& kind of loose. I check my zipper(just in case) and realize my underwear has completely fallen down and is bunched up under my butt. Luckily my pants were baggy and could hide it well. :) I had on the ones in the picture - the hubby likes them, but I may need to stick to my cotton ones with the good waistband for awhile.

Happy,Happy, Joy, Joy, Joy...

Ok, I went shopping with my sister and daughter today with no intention of buying anything for myself, but yea I can go to regular stores again!!! I went to J.Jill and bought several XL shirts and a pair of LARGE pants(granted the pants were stretchy, but whatever). Then I went to Gap and found some 20 regular khaki's on clearance for $7.00 - I got them with the intention they would fit in the next few months. When I got home I had to try them on and they freakin fit now!!! And they look good.
I feel like I'm in the land of the living again being able to go to regular stores and possibly finding something to wear. I always hated going out and just standing in stores while my friends or sisters looked. I've got a looong way to go, but we all need to remember these NSV's to keep us motivated.
Maybe I'll post some pictures of my new stuff later... :)

Snap out of it !!

So I'm kind of in the doldrums- no weight loss, no restriction from my second fill last week. Also, I forgot to call the Dr. right away to make my next appointment and I have to wait until the 20th now(I'm kind of a whiner- sorry). I'm trying to give myself a big pep talk to snap out of it.
On the positive side I have really been staying away from sweets(which is a big deal for me) and am eating pretty well(although too much). I need to exercise- but can't get motivated(the size of my ass should be motivation, but alas it hasn't been for the last 10 years).
I agreed to start walking at lunch with a girl at work, so maybe that will help. She is ungodly sweet, but a total fitness freak- she's a pageant girl and is getting ready for big one in November. She does aerobics/running for like 4 hours a day and uses celulite cream on her size 2 legs. She'll either be great motivation or I'll kill her within the week.

I'm going shopping this weekend with my sister to get my niece a 21st birthday present(I can't believe she's that old- I has 16 when she was born) at Tiffany's. I think I'm going to pick something out as a goal weight reward while I'm there. My husband we need the time to save up for it. :)

Good night ladies - be well.