Time to Refocus (again)

Well there seems to be a theme in blogland with some of us old timers. We've hit "we're looking good" , "I lost over 100 pounds", or "I'm lazy"(that's mine) plateaus. I've been in it for almost officially a year. Yes since last BOOBs.
Last year my goal was to be in the 170's by BOOB's and I barely made it, but I did. Yesterday my weight weight was 172.8. So yea 7 pounds in a year - awesome!
So my mini goal is to get to the 160's by this years BOOB's. Dare to dream right? I must start watching my nighttime eating and my "treats". My whole diet is a treat lately. Enough said - I got over 120 pounds off, I can get 15 more off.

In other news, we survived Irene with minimal damage and school starts for Cate tomorrow. She's a big 1st grader.

One good thing that's happening (and will hopefully help me) is that my husband Rick is finally on track with his band. After port replacement and tons problems getting fills, he's finally got restriction and is seeing results. He also started his blog back up (well a new address). I told him I would link to it IF he committed to blogging and not drop off the face of the planet again. He agreed, so if you are so inclined to follow him it's http://yesitsarace.blogspot.com/. Right now he just has one super lovely follower (guess who?).

I hope everyone has a great week - we are so close to BOOB's now. Are you excited???
You are not going to believe all the awesome stuff that the planners are doing - it is amazing to work with that group.

Holy Shit

We just had an earthquake! That was super scary.

Big Sexy

So I took a little "me time" off from work yesterday. I had a full blown chill and watch bad TV day. During my mini marathon of "Say Yes to the Dress" I saw this commercial for a new show called "Big Sexy". From what I can tell it's a show about plus size models/professionals in NYC. They of course say things like "once you go big you never go twig" and "we are big and beautiful". I never quite know how to react to these shows. Should I be glad that these women are so comfortable in their bodies(so they say) and are getting attention? Or mad that they are being exploited? I mean instead of having a show of just fat chicks out on the prowl, wouldn't it be more evolved to just have a mixture of different size women? Why does everything have to be so EXTREME? Plus, how many months will it be before one of these women is on the cover of People magazine in Jared pants showing us her amazing weight loss? I don't know - I really don't want to say that no one can be really happy with themselves being overweight and we all know that losing weight doesn't cure our problems, but when people talk so much about how they love themselves the way they are it just smacks of overcompensation.

Anywhoozle- just my two cents.

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Ghosts of Snack Machines Past

I had some interesting thoughts today in the lunch room – not sure if I'm ashamed of them or if they are merely thoughts on my own past.

 

While I was heating up my cup of chili there were several women in there I don't know well (because they gutted our Accounting Department and replaced everyone). One lady is pretty large (I feel bad writing that b/c it means I thought it) – I would say 350 pounds. And while I'm in there she's talking out loud to everyone (but specifically to another woman) "I'm so hungry. Am I going to get chips? Of course I'm going to get chips. Did you buy peanut M&M's? They sound good." 

 

So the whole time I was thinking how I would have never talked about buying junk food or being hungry or anything of that nature when I weighed almost 300 pounds. No way – wouldn't that have been so much ammo for some skinny bitch to make fun of me? Also, I'll admit I've hit up the snack machine at work many times (both pre & post band), but I used to only get stuff when I know no one was around and then covertly walk back to my humble cube.

 

In retrospect – I guess I give this woman props because she doesn't care what people think (maybe? or maybe it's a defense mechanism). I mean who was I kidding? I may not have eaten in front of people much, but it was obviously I ATE. A lot.

 

How about you guys? Were you a non public eater?

 

In other news I'm pretty much an epic fail in the weight loss challenge. I know what's wrong (night eating, junk eating), but I'm STRUGGLING. I'm seriously thinking of finding a eating disorder councilor to go to try to get a handle on it. Up to this point I've addressed the physical problem, but not the mental.

Hey, it's me...

So apparently it's been awhile time since my last post. I don't feel like it's that long since we're knee deep in BOOBS planning right now and since I'm trading a ton of emails with the other planners I feel very BOOBS focused, but I'm ignoring my own little blog.

So what's been going?

• Well weight loss is still pretty slow. I am struggling with my "sweets treat" at nights, they need to go.
  
• I KNOW I need to exercise to get where I need to be. Catherine's recent post about that really woke me up. I'm trying to work on finding extra time in the schedule for something structured. I also signed Cate and I up for mother/daughter Zumba on Saturdays in the fall.
  
• My Mom is having a hard time with some adjustments to her medications and is really struggling emotionally. This is hard on many levels, hard to see her upset, hard on my 83 year Dad who is doing too much, hard on me(and my siblings). I feel like it's affecting me more than I know right now, but she had a better week and we're going to see them tomorrow.
• Work is still not good. We had a company picnic/meeting a week ago and were told the team was in place (no more layoffs) and it was great, etc. Then 2 business days later they laid off a great worker with 14 years tenure and a ton of little kids at home. It sucked and felt very cut throat.
  
• At that same picnic I drank a little too much, but also walked around a work function in shorts (nice walking shorts - not Daisy Dukes) and a tank top with no self conscientiousness. Big NSV (the beer may have helped a little).
  

So that's what's been going on lately, nothing exciting. We're chugging along here. I am seriously looking forward to Chicago (if you haven't sent in your meal selection - do it!!!)

Did you see how pretty my blog is? Of course, Jenny spruced it up for me - she's the best. Seriously the best.

Have a great weekend!!!